It’s thirty-six degrees here and I am looking out my office windows at something dreadful called “wintery mix.” In Seussian fashion I don’t want to go out and I don’t want to stay in, have loads to do but don’t care to begin. I keep jumping from one thing to the next, though nothing engages me. The only solace is, as I walk back and forth to the kitchen (I convince myself that the twenty-five steps there and back negate the small square of dark chocolate with orange that I am going to fetch) is the new screens flanking the sofa. I may need to take just one more pass.
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If One is Good, Two is Better
My plate was full-to-overflowing last week, though with all good things. Even so, I had a horrible case of monkey mind which led to a very tight spine during the day and nearly no sleep at night. I was working on an event held last Saturday and, a few weeks ago, in the midst of planning and picking up, I decided I needed new bracelets. I had dodged the bullet of buying a dress and with this financial windfall (that was how I saw it at least) I thought I would treat myself to a pair of the Kenneth Jay Lane cuffs that I’d coveted for so long. A pair. Yes. Two. More is more.
A quick internet search yielded, remarkably, a site with a pair in-stock with free two-day shipping. Click, click, click. Distracted, I realized Tuesday that they had not arrived. Emails and increasingly frantic messages provided no satisfaction, though threats of internet retaliation finally did. The seller did not, in fact, have the bracelets, nor did he know if he could get them. He was sorry. It could take a while. Curious.
Curious and maddening, actually. And, in a moment of brief outfit despair, I almost gave up, resigned myself to some other not yet found something that would “do.” Almost. Instead, I navigated ebay on my phone (a less user-friendly site cannot be found) and located two sellers who graciously accommodated my a) obsession and b) time frame.
The first arrived on Friday and I told myself all day that if the other did not make it one would be enough. I was lying, of course. One would not be enough. The second appeared on my doorstep the next morning just as I was heading out to set up.
So, I wore them Saturday night and I’ve yet to put them away. If someone tells you that she saw some crazy woman at the coffee shop wearing jeans and a t-shirt and two enameled and jeweled cuffs, I’m sure you’ll understand.
All this in an effort to thank the sellers, hotfindsnyc and msharley. So grateful for your great service.
#swag, #YOLO
The rattan valise or Chinese lunchbox or clearly most charming thing ever arrived last week. It was the only item that I purchased on our vacation other than food and newspapers. From a high shelf in one of my favorite shops, she winked at me and I did think we had a lot in common. Bill and the boys agreed, “You have to get it,” they cheered. So I did.
She arrived by post and the newly-teenaged middle boy had to wait while I rescued her from the box.
“This is so silly. I have no idea what I’m going to do with it,” I confessed as I pulled it from the popcorn.
“Do you love it?” he asked.
“I do,” I admitted, sliding the pin from the latch and opening it to peek inside.
“Are you going to Instagram it?” he teased. “Hash tag ‘swag,’ hash tag ‘YOLO’?”
I looked up, “YOLO?”
“Mom,” he rolled his eyes letting me know how truly hopeless I am, “You only live once.”
Indeed.
Scoundrel
In our family everyone knows that Dexter loves us all, but we all agree he loves me best. Beyond me there is no descending order and the boys seem to take it in stride. It’s not uncommon for him to drape himself across my lap, his long legs hanging almost to the floor as I scratch his chin or rub his ears. Bill says this impossible behavior is my own fault as I held him there as a puppy while I worked. It’s comic and endearing and I love him.
When we were away we had a lovely young woman, beautiful and smart and nice – an amazing combination – watch him while we were gone. Coincidentally, her mother was vacationing in the same town that we were and we ran into her one afternoon.
“Oh, it’s so funny. Ellie just sent me a picture of Dexter with his head on her shoulder. She thinks he’s a riot.”
Everyone chuckled, including me, but my heart was in my throat. His head was on her shoulder? I was instantly struck that it is not me to whom he is so devoted, but anyone, it seems, who scratches behind his ear. Or coos his name. Or, worse, feeds him.
Jealous and indignant, I swore things would never be the same between us. Oh, we could be friends, it would be fine, we are both grown-ups after all (technically he’s two, or fourteen depending on how you look at it, but in his world he’s an adult plain and simple), but it would not be like before. I could never trust him again, not now that I knew he had so easily transferred his affections to another.
When we arrived home he skipped and pranced as always. I was aloof. He danced around me his big paws stepping on my feet, his nose nudging my hand.
The next morning when I awoke he was on the bed (where he is not supposed to be) and through the down of the comforter I could feel his chin resting on my leg. I opened my eyes and found him looking at me from upraised brows. I reached down and pulled his silky ear through my fingers. He rolled over on his back so I could scratch under his chin, knowing all was forgiven.
At the Beach
We invited the sun to lunch, but he politely declined. We thought he might be in the haze of a hangover, but didn’t ask. The pelicans arrived in his stead, bringing their own fish. They haven’t been here before, but we’ll be sure to ask them next year. They are lively and entertaining and ask nothing of us so it would be nice to see them again.
Though they say they are not, the pelicans are friends with the gulls who often tag along uninvited. They are much too chatty and sometimes rude and did not seem to realize we had had enough of their company. We asked if they had seen the dolphin, but they hedged an answer. We figured he was either too shy or, perhaps, reluctant to commit.
Two sailboats drifted at the horizon too far away to see us wave.
We’ve been away from town and I have been away from here, but we are back and so am I, I think. We’ll see how the week unfolds.